oh this happened too

Interesting events that also happened yesterday:
*K spoke to me asking me how I was doing about the blood sucker coming back on my unit. 
*The blood sucker's boss texted me to see how I was doing... (she was the one who was gonna call me waaaay in advanced if this was gonna happen - but again the fiasco in Fla....) as LA suggest I am watching my back very closely for sharp objects nearby!!!
*I also spoke to my ex boss's boss today about my situation with the bloodsucker (just a little bit - not the full details) - I had sent him a copy of my email that I had sent to my ex boss about my feelings of having no recourse, etc.  I wanted a paper trail.  He was kinda hostile at first accusing me of being 'hostile'  - so just had him pull up the email and read it to him line by line and explain myself.  He played very dumb - quite well I might add.  He knew about the situation earlier this year - how many accusations of harassment does a dir of operations get in a year really or even in the last 6 months?   I followed our conversation with another email to him - again paper trail - he has not responded to either - he knows what I'm doing... 
* Lots of people came by my office today sniffing around for info re: the ex boss and b/c I was seen talking to her boss - but I just did not share, said I'd rather not discuss that and even played a little dumb myself!  

Is this the boundaries my therapist has told me about? Hope I'm doing it well!!

her swan song

My ex boss had been planning on leaving apparently and her boss gave her a week to reconsider.  She chose to leave yesterday and so she was walked out - protocol.  Here is what I am wondering - did she get at me the one way she knew how and got the blood sucker back on my unit?  Thanks a lot...

wow

My boss was let go today and her reign of terror is over!  It was so short - only about 5 months but it was a long 5 months!  So now maybe I can rest easier knowing she is not trying to get rid of me - so glad I told her what I thought of her before hand. Wow - good things can come to those who wait - it just takes so long!  I can even accept the bloodsucker as long as the boss is gone!  But I will - I repeat:  I will speak up if the bloodsucker does anything inappropriate!!  And remember i sent the copy of my email of my fears to my boss's boss yesterday - so there is a record of my fears!  She did try to speak to me today but I was just too busy!! This will get easier!!

more drama

Well guess who gets to come back to my unit to work?    ...the blood sucker.  I knew something was up today- K looked at me and waved & spoke to me 2 times today and the bloodsucker was super friendly today - they both work in the same dept by the way. My boss called me in the office to see how I felt about her returning- then I knew everyone was being so friendly b/c the were looking out for their friend the bloodsucker.  I told her that I had no recourse b/c I decided not to file harassment charges against her - my decision - poor one but it was mine.  So I felt legally there was no way to ban her from the unit - I have no ally since her boss and I are no longer friends.  I felt I had to give her a chance - maybe she has changed and will be different.  I can't hardly believe it and I am just to tired right now to talk about it but I know I need to.  I know she has been asking for a while but her boss told me that she just kept telling her it wasn't a good idea right now. Her boss said she would put it off as long as she could but would let me know waaaay in advance of when she could no longer put it off.  But since she was involved in the fiasco in Florida - we are no longer friends and I got no call.  Instead she went to my boss - which yes is protocol but since everyone in that clique is angry with me now I am no longer privy to the information ahead of time like I used to be.  Sucks huh?  I am sure this is a way to get at me but I am just going to go on acting like it doesn't bother me.  Gotta get new friends...   and watch my back...

boundaries... just can't seem to get it

Boy I can sure pick em can't I?  My therapist says I have some interesting 'characters' in my life.  And that I have got to continue to work on boundaries with people I meet.  She says that for some reason I did not develop this skill as a child b/c of the abuse I experienced as a child.  I asked her if there was something I could read to help me b/c i just don't seem to get it.  I like people who are kind to me but apparently not everyone is on the up and up. And if I have decided that someone is my friend I am loyal to them regardless of whether or not they are good for me, hurting me, or sometimes I have just had enough.  But of course I always feel to blame b/c of the end of the 'friendship' whether it was my fault or not.    She said there is no book and that  I have to develop it on my own and listen to that little voice... But  I just seem to have this sign on my forehead that says 'take advantage of me - use  me - abuse me & throw me away when you done with me'!  I gotta get some new friends...

ignoring me...

Well K is ignoring me and that's fine that is better than the alternative.  I finally saw her today twice.  So sad how quickly a friendship can end - but maybe it wasn't as much as a friendship as I thought it was!

drama, drama, drama

Well I went down for a wedding - even brought items for the wedding is clothes, flowers, table, etc.  But got accused of coming down for a vacation rather than the wedding since we didn't spend every waking moment with them the first day.  So a fight broke out  the first day with a sober group - me and LA and a not sober group K and her clan and it was not pretty.  Her fiance even got in my face yelling obscenities and I was really scared.  So we got the heck out of there and just enjoyed the rest of our vacation since we had so much time on our hands d.t not helping with a wedding.  My friend LA and i just cried - we just have no idea what we have done wrong.  They did not communicate with us for 2 days where they were staying or what the plan was and we just decided that first day to do our own thing because we got in late the night before d/t stopping by to see my brother and my niece.  What a nice visit and I was able to pass down a family heirloom to my niece and I think she was so proud!  Anyways I have not heard from her since - well except yesterday in response to something I posted on face book - she thought i was airing dirty laundry.  i just posted something to 'you know who you are'  - i didn't' tell anything i just said that i wasn't perfect and neither was she and if she can't accept me then i guess we are over, that i still loved her, am happy for her and wish her the best.  She said I should have called or texted this - i said that i don't mind airing 'dirty laundry and people who know  me know that i am messed up and just say pretty much anything.  I am so sick of people telling me what i should and shouldn't do, speak, think or feel.  What made her think that I could even count on her to answer the phone or message after not communicating with us in florida and considering how ugly it ended?.