it's my birthday

Today is my 43rd birthday - happy birthday to me this person i do not recognize!  I am getting used to not knowing who i am everyday...  it kind funny.  For 40+ years i have been an abused girl that let's people take advantage of.  I don't identify with her anymore.  Not that i don't have my days but for the most part i am still a new me.  Daily i am still figuring that out and hope i like the end result... so far so good...  My therapist told me monday she wants to to look long term at what i want in 5 years and 10 years and so on...  i'll  be chewing on that one for awhile in my quiet moments.  It's nice to have junk out of you head so you can think about things like that...  i have never had this before...  Happy birthday to me - and i cannot forget my dear mother in law -may she still be Resting In Peace- who also shared my birthday - miss and love you!!!!!

ray lamontagne, 18th anniversary & such

Just went to cinninati area for the weekend for my 18th anniversary and had a ball.  My dream has come true - see ray lamontagne!!  Great seats - in row K - awesome! He is a folk singer that i found thru one of my facebook friends...  and his songs just spoke to me!  I immediately went to Amazon.com and bought all of his cd's - love them all!!  His music has been essential in my recovery - it's like he knows just how to express loss and heartache in a way us regular folks cannot.  As i cried during the concert at a couple of songs my husband said - i didn't bring you here to cry!!  It was the best anniversary present - not only did i get to see an idol - i also got to spend some quality time with my wonderful husband.  I have been looking thru old albums too reminiscing of our life in amazement how quickly 18 years has gone by.  If i had to do it all over again....  i wouldn't change a thing!

ps  ray's music is featured on that cute little commercial btw with the little dog and his bone for a ins company (i think travelers) - 'trouble... trouble trouble trouble trouble'  it's adorable...

Relix - Video - Live at Relix - Daphne Willis "One By One"

Relix - Video - Live at Relix - Daphne Willis "One By One"

this spoke to me...