i've graduated

well i did it!  she felt like i was ready and so did i!  she said i could stay on if i wanted to check in for accountability or go it alone...  and i chose to go ahead on my own.  we talked about what things would i look for that i needed to come back... signs and all...  and my therapist said it sounded like i knew what to do.  so here i am winging for awhile!  i know i can do this and if i slip she says i don't have to call right away just think back of all that i have learned and see what i what i could do to fix it - cuz now i know why i do what i do.  if that does not work - she is just a phone call away...

she said the magic words!

at my last therapy session my therapist told me that she would see me for a couple of more visits and then stretch the visits out farther for accountability and then 'graduate' me!  yes!  music to my ears!  i have been so busy with vacation and such i was unable to write about it but i am so excited!!! i have waited for this for so long and truly believe i have done the work worthy of graduating in the near future.  i am really proud of my self and so glad  God  he has led me on this path to recovery - without him i may not have stayed in this world - but i am so glad i listened to him!  i have always wanted some kind of vision or sign from God but never really felt it but i think for me it was way more subtle that i expected and when i look back it was there but i couldn't or didn't want to see it.  they say he works in mysterious ways...