events turned more interesting

well even more has happened since my last post.  the co worker that was leaving changed her mind and then my boss was suddenly transferred.  although it was what needed to happen...  the change was uncomfortable.  i wasn't sure about the other co workers commitment even though i wanted her to stay but have talk to her since and i feel better about it.  though i want my life to be more than about work i still want folks 'in the sand box' to 'play nice' and be committed to something bigger than a paycheck.  i guess that's the social worker in me or just me as a person.  i want to give good care and have others give it too -  not just because it's my/their  job but because i/they want to.  i have since talked old boss - as i said it was what needed to happen my heart goes out to her.  though we did not always get along we somehow got through it and she let me do my job and i  appreciated that.  i don't want anyone to lose their job.  so anyways that the news now.  work is work.  my emotions at this point continue to be even and stable.  meds are good and are as minimal as i can stand.  praying everyday has been the best part of my recovery.  writing too also helps.  i miss my therapist - even though i know i can call her when i need her.  i just enjoyed her as a person and as a fellow social worker.  any ways gotta go for now.  trip coming up with my husband again.  he is just so good to me and i have come to accept that i do deserve it.  we have been married now 19 years - that's along time to accept huh?