today...

Well today is ending on a good note... I had a good day and good evening. I did not take my Xanax at all today because of what my dr said yesterday and I did okay I think. There was only a little drama that I caused at work with a friend (which was weird) but hopefully I can get that resolved and explain myself - I seem to need to do that more and more lately because I'm doing things that don't seem like me and all that explaining is exhausting! I had 2 dear friends visit yesterday and 2 more today and that was helpful. They all say 'why don't you call me?' but don't they know how hard it is to do that? It is much easier for me to call them when they need me than the other way around - I even told one today ' you know the phone works both ways' and I was proud of me for saying that. I even told another "why don't you call me and then I'll know if you really want to hang out with me' - kinda pitiful but made my point I thought.