train wreck

My friend Sarah who is in the web of the bloodsucker looks so down and depressed...  I only can pray for her.  I went to my nurse practitioner appt today and she said 'don't jeopardize yourself by getting involved' she even suggested that maybe I step back but I told her that this was too close of a friend and I could not just drop her.  She said then I just better be careful because I am still grieving the loss of this person even though she was not the person I thought she was.  I asked her how could I get that through my thick head the feelings I still have for her?  She suggest I write it on my hand where I could see it, so later I did in permanent marker.  Of course it did not stick b/c at work I wash my hands and thousand times so I wrote in regular black ink and it helps.  It not only makes me laugh but reminds me of something very important  'It wasn't real!!'  I was told that the bloodsucker was bad mouthing me in a public area at work.  One of my aides over heard her and told me.   The nurse practitioner suggested that maybe the bloodsucker was doing this to get back at me because 'you're winning' - she did that 'so it would get back to me'.  She thinks that she is also keeping herself in my circle of friends to get at me.  I never thought about it that way.  Obviously she is not any better - and I am not giving her what she wants.  Sarah - can't you see what's going on???