Thursday, August 26, 2010
hanging in there
Well I see her on my unit almost everyday and it is getting easier - I guess or maybe I'm fooling myself. She actually spoke to me about non work related stuff and that made me uncomfortable because I feel like she's trying to act normal but I can't do that. She's not being inappropriate but I'm sure that if I engage in conversations with her that it would lead to it. So I try to stay busy... I called my husband yesterday while she was there so I didn't have to hear her voice on the unit - she was whining to a co worker - I never could stand her whining... I also saw K yesterday - she was pleasant when we spoke but there is nothing... and that is fine with me. Wow how things can change in an instant... OH and my Dad tried to come by and see me while he was in town but as luck would have it I was unavailable - not ready to deal with him yet. I am still very hurt by him not coming to my my dear mother in laws funeral. I have therapy today and I'm glad - I need it. Then later tonight - Date Night!
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Some days sure are tougher than others! Try to have a good one, if not, just try to get through the day living by your new rules, You sure are doing better than this time last year!
ReplyDeletethank you kathy - i have come a long way but it seems like i forget that. after talking with my therapist she said need to remind myself why this person is so toxic to me. she says what i am i am experiencing now are feelings of rejection now that i see her on a regular basis. and when i see her all i know to do is flee - gotta work on that - she doesn't deserve that power over me. she gave me some things to say to myself when i see her so she will not see any weakness - this bloodsucker is so good at that. can't wait to try it today!
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