past my 90 days :)

I feel better...  i think now just knowing that i have made it past my 90 period at work (it was thurs)  has helped me settle in and settle down.  There was a 2 week period of doubt and negative thinking that i had to drudge through but some how i snapped out of it.  I just kept praying to God please don't let me blow this opportunity you have given me if it is your will...  and finally it just kicked in that i was going to be okay. I wish i could stop my negative thought patterns for good but i can't help it.  I am trying and it seems that i can recognize it sooner than before - so that has to be some progress huh?  I've even gotten better with the newest blood sucker in my life - i just don't pay any real attention to her now and that has helped me cope with her.  And i think she knows i could care less now.  She has found a new audience - good for her and for me!