last days

Today and tomorrow are my last days on fmla.  I meet with my nurse practitioner this morning for med check.  I'm feeling good and hope it continues even when I am back at work.  I feel such peace since I have been forgiving myself - I pray for it everyday.  It's really helping me but I know that it will not be easy when I get back to the daily grind a work - I may fall back into old habits.  I ordered a medal the other day from the catholic online store - my friend Vic and I were discussing when other not the was a saint for mental health...  we  sure enough the were several!  I ended up choosing St Dymphna - the patron saint of mental illness and she also is for many other causes and for mental health professionals.  It seemed to be the one for me - and I  have been wearing her everyday.  I hope that it can serve as a reminder to me - I need all the help I can get.  I am looking forward to going back and I also think that is a good sign.  Luckily I will see my therapist the eve after my first day back - I'm sure I will need a refresher =) can't wait!  Therapy and forgiveness are the best gifts I have ever given myself.