testing me

I know God is testing me and he won't give me anymore than I can handle but some days I sure wonder...  the bloodsucker is still trying.  Though I have asked her to leave me alone - she just had to speak to me today for just a minute.  She told me she missed me, acknowledged that she hurt me and apologized as she has done so many times before - those are just empty words to me because she has not changed. She made me cry - which I hated - because she seems sincere but I know it is still a game.  It would take her so long to make up for the damage she has done and she honestly can't do it.  All she cares about is her and she's upset that someone 'hates' her (her words not mine).  I told her that our friendship was not real, that she did hurt me deeply and I could never trust her again.  She tried to make me feel guilty by telling me she was considering another job so I wouldn't have to worry about seeing someone I 'hate' any more.  What does she want - me to ask her to stay? Not gonna happen.  I had no response and later said this is not healthy for me to talk to you - then I left.  Yay for me! It was hard - because I did care about her very much.  I do not let people in very easily and I warned her before we became 'friends' that if she ever hurt me or violated my trust - it would be over.  But she was not the person she pretended to be and did exactly that.  She is one of the reasons why I say the Serenity Prayer everyday!  I cannot change her - I can only change my reaction to her...  I am getting stronger - I can feel it!