i know what it is

I am crying this morning - not sure what started it. But I think it is that my antidepressant has been decreased - I was on a lot of effexor when this all began and as I've been doing better the dosage is being decreased.  I haven't noticed feeling this way before when it has been decreased.  But maybe this reduction is more critical my nurse practitioner who works with my therapist's goal is for me to feel good but 'feel complacent'  maybe this is the middle ground.  I can see her point because I do want to feel but not be miserasble.  I hope that it will get even out soon and I will return to myself.  In the mean time I will have to be busy today and stop this crying.  I've texted a friend and if she's not available I will have to try another...  I've prayed too this morning for relief.  I want to call Sarah because she has been there for me before she knows how far I've come but I just can't...  I will have to call on others right now and keep praying!  My husband is out of town right now and naturally if he was hear I could lean on him but he is at a conference - I will talk to him later but in the meantime - lisa stay busy!