Friday, March 19, 2010

fear

I am going to try to walk today with no crutches!  I am afraid but I do have motion in that knee and need to use it! The physical therapist said I'll know when I feel ready - I think the cortisone shot has given me the confidence I need - so here goes!  The only thing I wish is that the 'bloodsucker' would stay away... this set back has offered her plenty of opportunities to talk to me and I am ready for it to stop - so maybe w/o the crutches gone - she will forget and she won't ask me how I am. Like she really cares - all she wants to do is talk about herself because the world revolves around her.  I have been doing good walking away.  What's happening is there usually there is always someone else with me when she tries to talk - sneaky but I know what she's doing.  This is how she's trying to get to me since I have asked her not to talk to me unless it is related to work or one of my residents.  God please continue to give me the strength to avoid her - I don't need or want this crazy person in my life.  I know you won't give me anymore than I can handle.

2 comments:

  1. I just read through many of your posts and I had to tell you that you are so brave to put your life out here! Good for you!

    I have been in therapy for the past 14 years and it has done amazing things for my life. It sounds like you are a fabulous lady working so hard to get her life together. You can do it!

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  2. thank you very much for you kind words - this has been a difficult process but very good for me. i never thought anyone would read my words but they do help me!

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