very interesting

I forgot to mention the 'bloodsucker's' latest conquest has quit her again and came by my office Friday.  She shut my door to talk about her!  We had the most interesting chat and compared notes on different things that were said to the both of us - the games that were played on us.  It was a very interesting chat and I hope it helps her stay away from the 'bloodsucker' but I told her if she could not I would not judge her because I too was once stuck in the web and it is difficult to get away. 

This weekend I had the opportunity to have some girl time yesterday with some good friends and it was nice.  One of them made the comment she didn't think I would go.  A few months ago I probably would have backed out - isolating myself at home like I do when I am in one of these funks.  But I didn't and really enjoyed myself.  Later in the evening my husband and I met a couple we hang out with and had dinner.  Vic made me cry when she was trying to tell me to forget the past and just focus on today and the future. She tried to make me feel human and tell me how she's even made mistakes in the past and that it is truly the past.  I know she's right but the stubborn guilt's just won't go away. As much as I'd like to think I have - I have not let go of the past yet.  Therapy is helping but it won't change me overnight and I know that.  I even today asked God over and over again to take away my most recent pain - make me stop thinking about the 'bloodsucker'.  I had a good cry while working out and it help!  I hope it last all week because I see her everyday at work.