finally it was therapy day

Wow I can't believe this day finally came.  I love my new therapist and she was great with me.  She made me feel normal and human and that I have done nothing wrong.  We did talk about my childhood and all the bad things that happened and she congratulated me on making it out alive - I forget how many hours I prayed to grow up and get out of that house alive.  I wasn't sure if I would ever make it but she's right I did and I am a strong person I just need to realize that once in a while.  We also discussed the particulars of my previous breakdowns and my most recent.  She said you sure have a way of self destruction - so true - I know I'm good at it.  How did you end up with such a nice sounding husband and I said 'by the grace of God'.  He has forgiving me time and time again for my craziness - I even warned him before we ever started dating that I came with a lot of baggage from my childhood and he didn't care.  And so many other times I have just wanted to give up and he won't let me - I feel like God sent him to me so I could finally be happy - though it is hard for me to believe I deserve it at times.  We talked about my anger with my father and she recommends staying away from my family for right now.  And yes we talked about my choices in friends - how they swoop into my life with a lot of drama and I get involved in it and try to help them and poof they are gone and done with me!  Sometimes they come back with the same old song and dance and I fall for it again. the therapist says it is like all those years I tried to fix my mom and couldn't and I was / still am hurt.  So I am trying to fix everyone else and can't and bring up that original hurt all over again - how many times can I pull off that scab before I break? I've got a lot to work on. I am supposed to be setting boundaries with the current person who has hurt me and we will work on warning signals next time of bad friendships. I need to learn that you can't make friends that easy with someone and that  some people are good at finding you weakness and will use them against you.   I go back in a couple of weeks and I can't wait.