using me

The bloodsucker is using me to make her most recent conquest jealous...  while at the same time trying to make me jealous of an old friend of hers. I had my appt with the nurse practitioner today and she says I am doing good and I seem to have a good grasp on what  I need to stay healthy.  I told her that I feel like I am going through the motions until I can work on myself.  But I will do my best to stay away from talking to the bloodsucker for now - until I talk with my therapist next week.  She will then tell me if it is healthy for me to have 'closure' with her.  I am sure that it is not healthy to have closure with her - it would be best with the therapist only.  My meds have been changed and I am nervous about that because I feel so good now.  But I understand the reason it needed to be changed due to my blood pressure is up with such a high dose of effexor.  She did change me from xanax to klonopin and I need to get that filled ASAP.  It will all work out but in the mean time I must be strong.  God please show me the way - or at least help me accept the way.  Let me lean on my husband and my TRUE friends!