she's at it again

The bloodsucker came to talk to me again today to 'tell me what was going on with her' - while she sounded honest and remorseful about the way she has treated me I just could be sympathetic with her.  I was happy to hear that her explanation was not that I had done anything wrong because I know I did not.  She wanted to meet later to discuss things and have closure on what has happened but I kept thinking that I would be foolish to do this on her terms after the way she treated me.  I first said I would think about it but when I talked to my husband and friends I knew that I could not do this now.  So I told her that it was just too soon for me to talk to her and that I have to protect myself from getting hurt again.  Yes maybe someday we can have closure but not now - not because she is down and out right now - where the hell has she been the last month and a half - she acted like I didn't even exist - that WE didn't exist - like I dreamed the whole thing.  She continued to say how sorry she was but she has a lot to prove if this can be worked out.  I think this is yet another scheme for me to jump in and help her and I cannot allow her to do this.  I do not deserve 'friends' like this. She later told me that she didn't deserve my friendship and I think she's right.  Now if I could convince my co dependent heart.  Please God do help me be strong and to stay away from those who hurt me and keep close the ones who support me.  I will not do this to myself again...