getting there

I was on facebook yesterday and a girl whom I used to be real close with found me and I friended her.  I would always say I would never get on facebook...  She asked me why I finally got on and I said to occupy my mind.  She said she could do that and proceeded to tell me her current problems!  This was a friend who I had told in the fall I was falling apart and I never heard from her again!  Now that I have had another breakdown - she is interested in my time!  Only to help her!  I told her that she had too much drama going on in her life. I don't need that right now.  This is the second time in a week I have told someone that!  Wow, good for me!  I can't hardly believe it when the words come out of my mouth.  Even today someone wanted something from me and I did not respond the way they expected. Is this the new me or just right now till I get the help I need.  When discussing today my choices in friends with a co worker today I was asked today 'are you a little co dependent there' and I said 'is it that obvious?'.  I gotta get new friends!