Tuesday, January 12, 2010

confrontation

I did it again - I confronted my 'friend' except this time I did it without her asking me what was wrong or was I mad at her.  Something she's been doing is really bothering me and this time I just came right out with it.  I think she was surprised - I know I was because I wasn't sure I could do it.  But before I knew it the words just comfortably came out of my mouth.  I didn't mean to hurt or harm but just to say - you need to be careful what you are doing because someone could get hurt.  I know because I was - even though I was probably asking to be hurt.  She said she's jaded and that she's been s--- on and she wasn't going to let that happen again - kinda like hurt before you get hurt...  I asked her if she really wanted to be that person - or is she that person?  I don't think I got a real answer.  She said it didn't involve me anyway but I told her as her friend I felt like I had to be honest with her.  Time will tell if it makes a difference but I won't bring it up again unless she wants to talk about it.  I feel I am getting stronger a little tiny bit each day.  Tomorrow is my appt with the psychiatrist's nurse practitioner... I am excited to get there and get this healing process started. 

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