last night

I went out with a bunch of girls last night and I am tired. I don't know if it is from it being such a late night or that it is so exhausting pretending everything is okay. I mean I'm okay but I get anxious around a lot of people - most of them I know but there were some I did not. I also did not drink until later in the evening and that makes for some interesting people watching as they get drunk. But I did get loosened up later and even got out there and danced - which I don't do without liquid encouragement. My 'friend' was there - it was her party and she was her same old self again and I was relieved. I am worried about her and the types of relationships she is seeking out. I have told her and that's all I can do because I have my own issues going on here. Today I am going to rest and I am so glad I worked out yesterday in preparation for how I would feel today.