truths revealed

I was right - I just felt it in my bones but didn't want to believe it.  Someone my husband has known for along time came to him today and asked him about me and my 'friend' and it came with warning.  Basically it was like this:  stay away from her, she's creates drama where ever she goes, she's monopolizes your time and she'll ruin your life. Turns out all those things I have been questioning about her these past couple of months are true.  She was playing a game with me, it wasn't real and I didn't matter to her.  I called my husband's friend last night and thanked them for confirming what I have thought was true because it helped hearing it from someone has seen this 'friend' in action.  There it's all out there now and I am just glad that God gave me those warning signs and finally that I paid attention to them!  I have backed away big time and see things more clearly but this evidence that there was something not right about her has just sort of sealed the deal for me.  If I had heard this any sooner I probably wouldn't have been ready to hear it because I was so caught up in helping her.  That's the kind of friends I choose and I don't know why.  They are so charming and convincing in the beginning and make friends with me so fast - I've been told more than a thousand times that I am too nice!  I can't ever have a friend who just likes me for me because I run them off.  But I always have time for the ones that are users and abusers - they are so exciting to me.
I went to my psych appt yesterday (yes, I had to take a xanax) and that went better that expected and she told me that I wasn't crazy  - I needed to hear that from a professional  for some reason.  I've got a lot of work to do on myself but she said that has happened to me is a learning experience and that I am just human and need to stop beating myself up!  She's not going to change my meds right now since I am going on vacation and I'm glad.  I leave tonight. I don't know if I will be able to post at the condo we are staying at in Puerto Rico.  I will if I can - because it does help me tremendously - if not then I will return to it when I get home...