meant to be

I prayed today as I have been doing everyday for God to help me get through the day, take over my guilt, insecurity, anxiety and worry.  It has been helping me and making me feel calm and relaxed but today something different happened.   I believe God puts people in your life for a reason and he showed me today.  I talked to an old friend today who helped me immensely and even better I let her.  She is always so easy to talk to but I just did want to bother her.  She was today as usual open and non judgmental and it felt so good to talk to her.  She said she's been meaning to come see me but just hasn't had time but boy did she make time for me today and I so appreciated it. I so wish I had gone to her sooner.  It's funny how you find help in the most interesting of places.  It gets easier to talk about my setbacks and I imagine once I go to my psych appt Wednesday it will get easier.  I will continue to heal - I just have to be patient.  In the meantime I have been focusing on my vacation - I am going to Puerto Rico!  It will be so nice to just get away for awhile - not running away but just taking a break and relaxing somewhere different.  I am ready and have been packed for 2 days - I won't actually leave till Thursday!